Film-making is also about decision-making: about representation and depiction, about making-sense and deconstructing non-sense; about raising one’s own voice and giving voice to others. It unfolds between selected images and hidden protocols and reflects the structures – social, political, historical and cultural – which shape our understanding of how we (film-makers) arrive at our choices. Before screening my film “Milli’s Awakening”, which portraits the lives of eight Black German female artists, I will explain what types of factors influenced my decision-making throughout the film production process, how I arrived at my choices and which elements and conditions I responded to and how. The lecture is embedded in a wider project of ‘unthinking modernity’ in relation to body politics. As bell hooks explains, the Black female body has always been a “discourse terrain” – a multidimensional research object, a medium of imagination and a place for attempts at social order and, last but not least, political conflicts. How can we decolonize our bodies in this respect and by doing so deconstruct structural violence in present and future decision-making processes?